“For I will restore health to you And heal you of your wounds,’ says the LORD, ‘Because they called you an outcast saying: “This is Zion; No one seeks her.” ’”
Jeremiah 30:17 NKJV
I am hurt. I am sad. I am mad. When you are broken, you face the reality of your true feelings about your life. For me, I tried my best to hide my brokenness because who wants to hear sad stories all the time? Who wants to hear that you really do not want to be a single mother or regret a relationship? Who really cares about what people said about you or that you feel like an outcast? We tend to think that being broken is ugly or a waste of time. To God, it is beautiful. When you are broken, you have a chance to be restored. But do we really let God heal us? Is it more comfortable to feel like a victim so you can always have someone to blame? One of my struggles was coming clean to God. I felt that He expected this perfect person and I shouldn’t be dealing with depression, rejection, lust, etc. since I was saved. The truth is that God is concerned about our broken hearts. I was disappointed that I was sexually involved with a person for three years and our relationship was mainly controlled by lust, (whether we admit it or not.) I was hurt that I did not feel like a queen and now I’m dealing with the responsibility of raising my son in a single parent household. I have unleashed unnecessary anger on my son because of the lies I believed and the situation I was in. I am mad that throughout my life, people said what they wanted to say about me regardless of my feelings. Truthfully, I do not have to stay mad, sad, or hurt. God wants to restore me back to this beautiful woman He made. Playing the role of a victim does not give me joy or a new beginning. Why stay bitter when I can mediate on the goals I’ve reached and how God provided tremendously for my baby without me spending a nickel. Brokenness gives us the opportunity to confess, admit, and forgive. After that, restoration gives you the empowerment to move forward. That means forgiving my ex and stop holding him accountability of what I ALLOWED. I have to learn how to love myself completely even the things I do not like. I must demolish every lie that Satan brought to me about my life. Acting like a sad puppy runs off God’s blessings. You are basically telling God , “I do not want the man you have for me because I want to stay mad at my ex although he moved on”, “Yes, I know you bless me with a good job to take care of my son but I still don’t think I can make it even though I am in a better financial position,” “I know that you love me and have great plans for my life but I want to stay hurt although people have no control of my destiny”….on and on. Let’s take the courage together to be broken before God so He can put us back together again. There is joy ahead.
Posting Chapter 2 of Parris’s Hope this Friday night. Are we going to find out what she is really running from?
Fear/Break Loose/ 
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