“Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,”
Philippians 3:13 NIV
At the beginning of the week, let’s say I had sort of a meltdown. Last week, I post about being broken. Well, my brokenness reared it’s ugly head after church this past Sunday. I start to feel distant again from my church members, frustrated with my son, wishing I belong, etc. This has been a repeated attack in my mind many times so what’s the issue??? After talking with my Dad, I came to a conclusion which is my only option: Kiss It Goodbye. What do I mean by that? The hardest person we can face is ourselves. Of course, I can blame people, my job, etc. but that does not excuse me. So the issue? Me….Who I need to say goodbye to….Me……
“Me” is the reason why I cannot move on to new friendships because I’m stuck on what people said about me in the past. “Me” is the reason why I cannot fully love my son because I am still upset about maintaining a household by myself. “Me” is the reason I cannot receive all of God’s blessings because I am still operating as the “old” ShuCora. So “Me” is ruining my life lol. Although that may sound funny but it is not. Just think about it. Are you supposed to be married by now but why not? Are you supposed to be in a high paying position by now but why not? Are you suppose to be mentoring others by now but why not? Yes, God’s timing is everything but we can delay His blessings.
Being honest with ourselves is hard. Yes I have the crazy idea of running away and discovering a new life somewhere else. Maybe just maybe I can get a chance to start over with new people…..but like they say, You take You everywhere You go. If I am struggling with depression in Mississippi, then I will be struggling with it in Alabama, Missouri, or wherever if I don’t get it resolved. (Side Note: I would love to live in another state just for the experience but “Me” can’t come with me 😉.)
All God wants from us is “Yes”. Yes to God is total surrender. My hurt, my suspicion, my attitude, my thought processes, my dreams, my ways…..Everything. Don’t get me wrong I love ShuCora but all she wants to do is stay in the past. I have a future and things I want to do to build God’s Kingdom. It will never come to fulfillment if I don’t sever ties with my “so-called” partner in crime, Me. Be honest about what’s holding you back. Be honest about your life and any discontent you feel. You want to move forward so you know what you got to do. Even if you have to cry through it (like me lol), put on your Big girl or Big boy pants on and do it!
To everything that is holding you back (yourself, past relationships/friendships, your mouth, your thought patterns, bad habits and anything sabotaging your future) …
Kiss 💋it goodbye……
P.S. God has healing, Love, joy, peace, and so much waiting for you. So why are you still holding on to Sad Susie or Mad Matt or (insert your name or that thing) year after year. Part ways….You have a life to live.
Fear/Break Loose/ 
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