Fear/Break Loose/

Stopped at my front door standing in the sun

Gaze in my camera lens and start to smile

Snapped the perfect picture to depict a happy life

Updated my status to show off my beauty

Sporting my white blazer in my yellow dress

Admiring how people love it when I post

Unlock my door and sit on my plush couch

Now I am all alone with no one to see me

Run my fingers through my hair and sigh real loud

Is it real to only showcase when I’m happy not lonely

How true are my words if I hide the truth about me

Get up to walk to my bedroom and close the door

Standing in the mirror to face one person and admit

I have issues with people because it’s hard to forgive

I barely like what I see in the mirror; I’d rather kill her

I carry the regret of my past sins instead of chasing God

Can someone look into my eyes and tell me “I’m loved”

Yet I cannot announce those secrets to the world

Because to be authentic is to expose who You are

We’ve been fooled to think our lives are our social media stats

Take off my white jacket to reveal my aching scar

My yellow dress is a cover up of the ugliness I hide

My smile is not this pretty when I want to die inside

Who cares about what I post because it is only lies

So let me give you the insider about being “one hunnit”

Allow the tears to flow and cry out loud all your fears

Stop pretending to be cool with people that you hate

Erase all the shout outs and unplug from everything

Confront the pain, confusion, and bitterness inside

To keep it real is to embrace what it is and stop lying

After my breakdown, authenticity yields a real blessing

When I reveal my ugliness, God clothe me in beauty

He is not afraid of the truth bomb that we tend to despise

He knows the words we say and the words we mean

Yet we still go through the motion and run back to routine

Because the truth about authenticity ……..

                     It challenges you to Change

Poem written by ShuCora Walker * Copyright © 2020 by ShuCora Walker