This year, I do not want to leave a conversation FULL.
After reading that statement, you may be confused by what I mean, but I am referring to being truthful. I found that the root of my resentment was that I did not communicate my expectations, my needs, and the things I needed to say in the moment to dispel any misunderstandings. I am not saying that everyone is going to understand everything I say or do, but I did not want to walk away from a situation or conversation without closure. I define “closure” as making peace. Making peace can be forgiveness, separation from the toxicity, resolution, or turning away from it completely. My goal this year was to “empty out” the words, feelings, and whatever is attached to that conversation or situation so I will not resent the person or action because I learned to communicate what I needed to communicate. We all must learn to speak up. What are we hiding? What are we protecting? Is there an issue with truly “living in authenticity”? Our voice can transform from a “barrier to our lives” to “the key for freedom in our lives”. It takes nothing to be open, but it takes everything to be silent. To open is to surrender your pride in order to be vulnerable so you be healed. To be silent is to carry the weight of the trauma and become weighted down by “unhealed wounds”. To be open is to bypass the shame so you can release your testimony of freedom in order to help other people bypass their shame and be free. To be silent is to also allow shame to close your mouth and hide the “words” people need to hear so they can move forward in life. Open your mouth and speak.
This summer, I will be “extracting some valuable nuggets” from my poetry book: Testimonies Of A Young Woman- Pieces Of My Journey…If you are interested in the book, click on the following links:
Paperback Edition:
https://www.amazon.com/Testimonies-Young-Woman-Pieces-Journey/dp/B08M2B615J/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1649190393&sr=8-1
As always, feel free to comment and engage in some good convo!
Fear/Break Loose/ 
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