Fear/Break Loose/

I am not like some girls

Who’s chasing after fairy-tales

Dreaming of a pretty, white dress

Walking down the aisle with joy

Gazing at her husband happily

Later to find out that’s not reality

I am not the perfect girl

Not the image of an “ideal bride”

Gave myself away before “I do”

White is not my attire but red pain

Adorned with scars from my past

No cute kittens or rainbows there

Not looking for a Prince Charming

Longing for a God-made connection

Man of faith that embrace my scars

Taking my hand to surpass limits

Exhibiting ways of royalty in our home

Whence by the Word of God we rule

Wondering if I truly deserve that man

Or the one my past reminds me of

As little girls, we played house with dolls

But never imitated life’s growing pains

What is the rush in finding my soulmate

My biological clock is not a real factor

And if you gotten anything in life…….

……………….You first had to wait….

Waiting may sound like an outdated song

For my ears, it’s a soothing, peaceful melody

I draw near to my Savior’s arms

Allow Him to wipe my tears of distress

Feel the touch of his healing power

Reveal my hurt to be clothed in freedom

Freedom to be me

As I wait for my King

Freedom to learn and grow

As I wait for wedding bliss

Freedom to live my purpose

As I wait for a holy union

With Jesus, I lack nothing at all

I can still smile without a mate

Not going to be bitter or sad

Envying others as they marry

If you ask if I am dating

I’ll simply say…..

    I Am In Waiting…..

-ShuCora Walker, ©2018

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