As a full-time employee, single mother, online PhD student, and writer/content creator, I realize that I carry a lot on my plate. Now, one can say that “I’m doing too much” but no one knows the reason behind my drive. The problem that I have is not the load I’m carrying but thinking that I don’t have the capability to carry it. I do believe that I’m made for more but not aligning my life to handle more. In a sense, my load may look heavy, but it’s fitted for the person that I’m becoming.
I understand how you can take on new ventures or pursue old dreams that you pushed down for years, but at the same time feel the voice of “doubt” pulling you back from achieving that success. I wrestle with the “old narratives” about myself that said “I am a nobody”, “I am not capable of learning complex things”, and the most popular “I do not deserve this”. On last week, I had to think about the need for me to change the narrative. My new narrative DOES NOT INVOLVE MY PAST. It involves a woman becoming who she was created to BE. So yes I am enough to be the amazing writer, great mother, barrier-breaking PhD graduate, successful entrepreneur, and whatever else is added to my life.
I cannot forget to add this. Rest is still a thing. I didn’t want anyone reading this post thinking that “Work Life” is the only thing but taking time to rest is very important. My ideas are made clear when I can get the rest I need. Yes, sometimes I fail at this but I’m more aware now than ever that this needs to take priority. So looking forward to watching my movie tonight….Monsters University on Disney+😆😆😆 (…such a kid at heart)
As always, feel free to share your thoughts and share heart on the matter…see you later this week peeps!
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