Fear/Break Loose/

I’m all for self-reflection, self-talk, and self-awareness because I do believe you need to have a healthy sense of who you are as an individual living in this crazy world. Sometimes all that “self this and that” can be rooted in deep lies. If I am basing who I am off what people think about me, then I am only seeing their opinions when I look in the mirror at myself. It’s heartbreaking to both see and hear a person’s self esteem being broken down to the core. It’s even sadder to witness individuals basing their whole identity off money, fame, status, and even relationships. We are more than stuff. We are more than our past baggage. We must be careful in how we handle ourselves. If majority of my “self talks and self reflections” are rooted in lies, then I will never have the right perspective of who I am. I rather based my identity in truth. The truth for my life comes from what God says about me because I know He doesn’t lie. Yes, this has been a battle because I understand how life can cause your self esteem and confidence to crumble but the truth is that I have been redeemed. Honestly, some of our self-awareness is rooted in how other people feel about us and we are changing our entire identity just to please them. I’m not saying that we should not be aware of how we make others feel through our own bad actions sometimes, but I should not be so pressed to fit in a box that some want me to stay in.

At the age of 33 (soon to be 34 next month!), I am coming into this stage of life where I want to just BE ME. I want to pursue the gifts that I have fully. I want to engage in the right community of individuals who are going in the same direction as I am. I no longer desire to live my life the way others want me to. God gave me freedom to pursue the path that was designed for me. This all starts with seeing myself differently.